So I decided to log back into this old account I have been avoiding for about five years now? And I am cringing at all the horrific "art" that I have posted over the years. I have committed every Graphic Design sin (with angsty eyeliner to boot) and became self indulgent in wallowing in my own self pity, as well as thinking I was an "artist" for listening to Christopher Hart's "How to Draw Anime books".Not to mention all the embarrassing comment history of abusive ex boyfriends, the painfully awkward desire to be something I wasn't, and just the poorly executed work in general I put on here that I thought was actually.
I have occasionally logged into this account to check up on artists I admire and to clean out my inbox now and again, but I never stayed to long. It hurt to see where I was when I was trying so hard to focus on moving forwards, and I guess this account and all the memories I made on this site were painful. Meaningful but painful.
I made a new account with a different screen name, and made plans to to move my professional graphic design work and other art there, but I could never fully get invested in it. It was hard to start from scratch after building a strong identity under this account for almost a decade. Even if what I posted was shit, people knew who I was and I made a lot of close friends that changed my life. Not in a good way at times, but I did learn and grow from those experiences.
But, the communities I interacted with here were toxic, and the environment on here grew more and more triggering for me here so I obviously left and currently just hang around tumblr, and flickr. Great communities but shitty interfaces and poor usability over all. The reason I came back was because I missed the connection I had with my online and real life friends on here. I missed the interface, I missed the customization options and portfolio and print options. I think I finally grew into this site to use it properly.
I doubt any of you have remembered me. But if so. Hello.